I Cannot Wait To Get Back In The Gym!

          I cannot wait until I can get back into the gym and start working out again. These new legs are so ready to get moving again.  Honestly, even though I am so ready to be back, I am a little nervous too. I keep reminding myself that little setbacks, or not being able to lift as heavy or go as hard is not a big deal.  I remind myself that I am on a journey and that there is no finish line.  I have to remind myself that being a little “weaker” since I have been recovering from surgery does not make me weak.  Sometimes we all need to remind ourselves that when we are on a fitness and health journey, that there is no finish line and that as long as we keep moving in the right direction, and bettering ourselves and our health, then that is all that matters.  Even though surgery might have set me back a little, I would not change it for the world because the changes it has already made in my overall mental and physical health are more than worth the time away from the gym.  “I am learning everyday to allow the space between where I am, and where I want to be, to inspire me and not terrify me.”   I feel like I have been living in this outfit too.  This top is everything and I am in love with this purple color (well all of the…

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Workout Q&A With My Trainer.

500 is a big number.  It is also never a number that I ever imaged that I would EVER see on a scale.  I remember that day so well.  I stepped on the scale for the first time in forever and it read 510.2 pounds.  I was sad, angry and devastated that my weight was so completely out of hand.  It was at that moment I decided that I needed to change.  I wanted to change.  But where do I start first?     To be honest, it was a while before I really began working out and even longer before I joined a gym.  For me, the best thing was to break it down into parts, and not just jump right in and say “ok today I am going to lose over 300 pounds”.  I set small goals, and when I accomplished them, I set new goals.  That was the same thing with starting a gym.  I worked up the confidence in myself and my body before I ever thought about joining a gym or before I stepped foot into a gym.  But when the day came and I decided that I actually wanted to stop working out at home and face my fears and actually walk my booty into a gym, that was the day that my life and my body changed forever.         I decided to join a bootcamp style gym where it was group classes of both cardio and weights mixed together.  There were…

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Nordstrom Designer Showcase Event plus How I Deal With Sweating the Small Stuff.

          Sweating the small stuff.  Something that I really do not like to do, and something that I try my best to avoid at all costs.  I am a pretty happy and positive person, most of the time.  Unless something is really big or causes me a really big problem, I am pretty good with letting things just roll.  But the other day, I had a big melt down.  I really did let something very little cause me to have a little pity party and become very..frustrated. Earlier this week I was invited to attend an event with my local Nordstrom.  I was able to attend their designer showcase event!  It was so much fun!!! They had all of the new pieces that were  worn on the runway, and actually had some of the exact pieces that were worn there as well!  It was so much fun to just walk around and look at all of the amazing designer items and imagine myself wearing all of these pieces.  It was so cool to actually see a picture of the model on the runway next to the item.  I have to admit I loved watching what everyone was picking out and what they were tying on!  It was so much fun and it made me dream of the day where I can actually buy one of those pieces!   But going back into the night before the event, I was definitely sweating the small stuff.  If you…

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1 Week Before Surgery #5

        This week has gone by so so sooooo slowly.  Usually the days or weeks leading up to surgery seem to fly by, but this week drug on!  I started off the week so ready to crush this week, and get everything prepared for surgery.  But then it happened…I had a hard time going to sleep.  My mind would not stop.  I kept thinking of everything I needed to get done.  The laundry, the dishes, grocery shopping, getting all couch and recliner ready and covered up with special pads so they were all ready…the list went on and on.  I literally got no sleep this week.  I really hate that I cannot just shut my brain off sometimes.  I did a lot of praying and positive self talk.  I told myself over and over again that everything was going to be ok.  I really think the days before surgery are so much worse than after surgery.  I just feel like everything needs to be “perfect” and that I have to have everything ready and all prepared and I get myself more anxious and nervous than I need to be.  I did a lot of deep breathing too.  If you can’t tell patience is not my virtue…waiting is not a talent of mine. I am just so ready for it to be Monday.   This week was a pretty good week overall.  I had my last workout class before surgery and that was a little sad.  I felt…

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